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TRACY THORNE

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AMABEL'S UNRAVELING

The Islands

April 3rd, 2020

 

CHAPTER 1

            It’s a modest sailboat with a decent engine, but the seating on the deck leaves something to be desired, as does the demeanor of the captain. He’s hung over, I decide as the stale, slightly rotten scent of cheap rum squeezes through the pores on his leathery skin and wafts toward me.

 

“They’re rated number one on Trip Advisor and Yelp for half day snorkeling excursions,” my husband Vince told me yesterday. Husband, God, it’s been six months, and I can’t get used to the sound of it. It’s a belated honeymoon without the bliss and the fireworks. The romantic getaway to Saint Thomas has changed nothing. My passion has flatlined, and it’s getting harder to fake. When will he notice?

 

I lean against the worn pillows on the built-in bench seat and take a sip of iced ginger beer. Deep turquoise water, the warm wind drying my ash blonde, saltwater tinged hair, greenery and white sand fringing a small beach in the distance—it’s almost peaceful. If only…. 

 

Sherri, the captain’s girlfriend of twenty years, climbs effortlessly from the galley and places a gorgeous vegetable tray down in front us. “Appetizers,” she says, her bright teeth carving a smile on her caramel brown face. “Ben is heading out to a spot by Dog Island that will be better for snorkeling,” she adds as I start in on a zucchini strip.

 

Vince is talking. Loud and cheerful, his blah fest about the “superior” snorkeling gear he purchased for our trip buzzes around me like annoying insect sounds. I’ve snorkeled before during childhood trips to Hawaii with my grandparents. Colorful fish, the warm sun, the sandy floor of the ocean five feet below, not one hundred, is what I remember. The depth of the ocean caused me to panic when I got into the water fifteen minutes ago by Little Saint James Island—Jeffrey Epstein’s island. It has to be shit luck to get in the water here, I thought as I clunked off the back of the boat. Turns out there wasn’t much to see, and relieved, I followed Vince back to the boat.

 

We anchor in calm waters, in an area crowded with boats—some posh and packed with tourists and some small like the one we are on. Captain Ben points. “The coral reefs and cliffs there are prime for fish spotting. Sherri will show you around. Just don’t stand on the coral beds. That’s a good way to get stuck by a sea urchin, and they’ll tear right through your foot.”

 

Pulling on my flippers, I watch the captain’s twenty-something daughter, who is visiting from Portland Oregon and almost as pale as I am. The daughter jumps into the water with two foam float noodles. I touch Vince’s arm, interrupting his conversation with Sherri. “Babe, she has floaties.”

 

He flaps a dismissive hand. “You don’t need those. You’re buoyant, especially with your flippers. Are you ready?” he asks as he turns and watches Sherri slip into the water with hardly a ripple. 

 

I make eye contact with Ben, who is drinking from the giant plastic tumbler Sherri gave him. It’s dosed with something—rum maybe—to soften the jagged edges of his hangover and mood. Please suggest a noodle. Get up and go down into your dark galley and get me one, I plead with my eyes. 

 

Ben smiles and lifts his head toward the sun. “Beautiful day,” he says.

I’m still staring at Ben when Vince calls out. “Hurry up, pokey. We are all waiting.” 

 

My clumsy flippers are useless on the short aluminum ladder, so I give up and flop into the water. “Most ungraceful entry. You win, sugar,” Vince says, and everyone smiles except me. He waves his arm. “Let’s go,” and he adjusts his mask and snorkel and submerges his face.

 

Sunlight streaks through the water, illuminating Vince’s red swim trunks. And my breaths rattling through the tiny tube, I follow. You can do this. Breathe, you’re getting oxygen. Relax. It’s fine, I tell myself, but the tight spot in my chest won’t leave. 

 

They stop, and as I watch their dangling legs kicking in the pale water by the surface, a current pushes me toward a ridge of rocks that stretch to the ocean floor seventy-five feet below. And want to join them, but I worry about water getting into my snorkel and clearing my mask. 

 

Vince is back under the surface, touching my arm and motioning toward an opening in the rocks below. Oh, fuck no, I’m not coming. I shake my head. He shrugs and dives, arms moving like a ballet dancer, and turning sideways, he disappears through the opening. Showoff. 

 

The pink noodles and the daughter’s long legs are my new safety beacons. Fish: puffer, yellow, orange, and now a small school parting for me like a colorful billowing curtain. It’s an effort to take in the mystery and beauty and to not freakout about breathing while submerged in water—an unnatural thing.

 

I stop and floating, I search for familiar pairs of legs or for the diving, graceful bodies of my husband or Sherri. Alone, I drift closer to the underwater cliff of rugged rocks covered with purple sea anemones that dance to the rhythm of the current. Just around this group of rocks and I should be able to see the boat. 

 

My head breaks the surface. The ocean bobs around me, skewing my sense of direction. Where is the boat and everyone else? My eyes sweep the dynamic liquid field. A tiny blot; it’s the furthest away in the smattering of vessels. Vince is maybe fifty yards from the boat and with him is the girl and her pink noodles. He’s shouting something I can’t hear and waving his arm. 

 

My mask is slipping down, and treading water, I adjust it and put the snorkel mouthpiece back in. The vented top of the snorkel must have dipped beneath the surface when I brought my head up, because I inhale and briny water rushes into my mouth and down my throat, sputtering away my breath. I jerk my head out of the water, remove the mouthpiece, and suck in air. How do I clear this? I blow into the mouth valve. Face submerged again, I propel forward—breathe, one, two, and more water. 

 

I stand on a coral bed, gasping and fearing the stab of a sea urchin. Vince is near the sailboat now, motioning with wild arms. I see you. That’s not the problem! My throat is raw from saltwater and effort, but after multiple attempts, I clear my snorkel. I hunker back into the water, and kicking away from the reef, I scrape my knee on the rough coral.

 

It’s strange how the temperature changes and hitting a sudden cool pocket is chilling somehow, like there’s a spirit nearby. Mama? I dismiss the thought. Keep going, I should be close. 

 

Hazy in the wet, grainy light, the hull of a boat appears up ahead. I bring my head and shoulders out of the water. The sun has slipped behind a cloud, puffed like cotton, and the ocean has turned dark and moody. Flippers heavy on my feet, I tread water and look around. It’s a horrible realization and the pit of my stomach is a rock. I’ve gone the wrong direction.

 

My boat is a white dot in the distance, and I turn toward it. I blow into the snorkel and then insert it in my mouth and start off. And again, I swallow water, a large mouthful this time, and I’m choking and coughing. My cloudy mask is slipping down over my lips, and I yank it off. Where is Vince? 

 

I let go of the mask and snorkel and swim. An eighth of a mile? Can I do this? No. I stop and raise my arm to alert the group of people on a boat about sixty feet away. Please help me! My voice thunders inside my head as spoken words catch in the bile in my throat. And the people on the boat sip their drinks, continue their conversations, and wave cheerfully back at me. The sun leaves the cloud cover and throws blinding fists of light at me, and the bright blue sky tips drunkenly toward the ocean. I am going to drown.

 

 

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After years of often challenging public service work, Tracy found writing fiction to be more cathartic than running at a mad pace on the treadmill in her garage or sipping red wine as she watched mind numbing television. And she discovered she loved writing fiction as much as reading it.

 

Tracy lives with her husband and two small, obnoxious dogs in California, where she enjoys hiking, skiing, walking on the beach, wine tasting, and a rare summer rainstorm. In her spare time, when she is not curled up with her Kindle or binge watching “Bosch”, she is working on her next novel, which God willing is slated to be a New York Times Best Seller that gets adapted into a film. (It’s the dreams that keep her going.) 

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Question or comments? You can reach Tracy at: storysense101@gmail.com 

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